Sunday, May 25, 2008

Having no Past


Thts wht i am now...i have no past....no more memories frm school or nething tht i was b4 goin to IIT.... i made sure i had loads to take with me at every point of life tht i thought was memorable...but now....nothing's left of it. Thanx to my parents for this...
I wanted to take them along with me when i went to IIT....all of them.... my school tie...belt...10th class hall ticket...ramaiah entrance exam hall ticket....farewell invitation...to the teachers and the one tht i got frm my juniors....keychains....pics....class grp pic....farewell pics of a teacher who left when we were in 7th....my first ever senti letter....the gift wrapping paper of the gift i most cherish....sri mega i card....and god knws wht.... !!! Already the graffiti lab coat...than to my washerwoman who decided to wash it as clean as possible was as white as new just 1 yr aftr school.... and now this....
Miss them too much :(
I dnt have a past nemore....if they cudnt take care of it why did they stop me frm taking them to iit when i wanted to in the first place....Hate them for this
just too sad right now :(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(

Friday, May 02, 2008

The first day :((



i never thought it wud b this way :((
nothing to do the whole day....i mean absolutely nothing...and jus when i wanted to leave....i was given these 25 ppts...each with a min of 50 slides to read so tht i wud knw wht exactly i wud b dealing with..... my foot !!!
my "boss" apprently didnt feel like turning up for the day...and my associate apparently didnt feel like letting me home ....grrrrrrrrr !!!
and he thinks he did some kinda ehsaan to me by giving me access to this BC dated comp...which takes ages to perform ne task and moreover....no access to ne kind of sites.....blockign mailing sites is one thing....blocking... forums and discussion...entertainment....and god knws wht else.... the only sites i discovered tht work thr r google (though the result pages dont seem to open) and wikipedia....tomorrow i am goin to take sumthing to read thr...though i am not sure wht since i have no books in hand....maybe i will take my lappy along so tht i have sum or the other kind of entertainment thr....i mean i am totally gonna turn crazy with 9hrs of office hrs...and nothing to do...well atleast tomorrow i will have the lunch hr to wait for....today i didnt have tht also....long story abt tht...dont want to sit writing abt tht now

as for the movie review promise.... OMG !!! i think i wudnt mind giving a review of SATC..... i cant bear to write abt tht ewwwwwwwwww movie i saw today "Mr Black, Mr White" nothing related to the title for one thing....dont knw wht those charlie's angels char were doin throughtout the movie....actually dont knw wht half the char r doin in the movie ...dont knw why they were existing for 99.99% of the movie and the comedy .....plz hang urself Mr dialogue writer or whtever or whoever u r.... i mean pathetic...patheitc ka bhi baap...and acting.... i wonder if execpt Arshad neone else in the movie can act...including Suneel Shetty....well he cud never act as it is....the heroines...whtevr their names were....whr did they find them??? some daily soap?? well i think even soap artists are better these days ... horrible horrible horrible acting pathetic dialogues....aweful movie in a single word... dont ever ever try watching this....thr isnt a single thing i liked abt the movie... ONE TWO THREE was 200 times better than this.....so for those who saw the later movie must understand how bad the former is

jus a bad day at work and at play :(

My first day at Work

well....thts wht i like to call it :D
goin to b starting off in another 1 hr frm now.... i dont have my entry pass though and i was supposed to take a print out of the appointment letter which i forgot....so i have no clue whether they r goin to allow me or no :D jus hope they wud
and hope i dont fall off asleep.....coz i have no clue as to whether i will have work today or no...and no clue as to who this man is tht i am supposed to meet...its weird tht i have to b thr at 8:15 though i dont knw if this guy tht i am supposed to meet is goin to come by 8:15 no or :(
aaaaghhh... too many things tht i am unsure of :(
thts a bad start thr......jus hope i wud b writing differently when i come back :)

The CAT call !!!

Hmm.....quite a few ppl i knw got into the IIMs ......
i wonder wht i would be writing abt myself at this time of the year next year :D
i dont knw whether i want to get into it or no
i mean right now i have no motivation to get into it...at this point of time i really dont mind not getting into it....i mean i dont knw if its wht IIT has done to me...or whether jus getting into IIT was the only thing i ever wanted. I might jus b doing it for my parents... i cudnt care less abt not getting into it....i mean wud i really need an IIM degree?? right now if u ask me...well i dont think so...but then maybe 1yr or 2 yrs down the lane i wud want to do it....coz remembering my obsession for having those numerous graduation/post graduation degrees.....well i do want to have sumthing like tht sumtime....but i dont knw if now exactly is the time...or i wud really want to b writing another competitve examination like JEE or CAT for tht matter to get into one... i mean i dont want to write these F**king exams again....i jus want to get into a university ( a reputed one though :P ) and complete my PG and get out of it... I dont want to b judged based on stupid a b c d options tht i put which i end up being bad at all the time...i mean objective type of questions and me....dont go together....ever ever....and i wonder how ever passed JEE screening also...if i was just a year late...i probably wudnt get into IIT at all :D
and i opted for stress and coping as an HSS option and if i get into tht (which is less likely) i wonder i wud score in tht course :p
well finally let me try and wait to see if my notion abt the CAT exam is gonna change by november when i wud b taking it...coz i dont want to end up feeling bad abt not getting thru it though i never wanted to write it ...i still dont understand y i am writing tht exam right now...jus coz everyone else is doing it???