An old friend asked me wht was wrong with me.....really....wht is wrong with me??
am i fine? or am i not? am i happy or am i not? am i sad? feeling left out or not? feeling into the grp or not? feeling nabbed from the back or not? loathing it or not?
well whtever i am feeling i really dnt care abt it nemore....maybe thr does come a stage in life when nothing really matters to u....u dnt care abt wht ppl think abt u....u dnt care whether thr is sumone to think or no also :P
like i said...i was telling this frnd in brief abt things...and this is wht i said....and i like wht i said...
Its hard to find friends who stick by you at all times...and once u find them...it is equally hard to lose them :)
Thursday, October 04, 2007
Life is definetly a sine wave like sumone said....but i shud say -- a deformed sine wave...with the depressions more than the altitudes....or whtever.
So many things to do...so much to manage...and not feeling like doing nething :(
Didnt have an entry for socials...and now even the gyrations junta are paining...and my health isnt letting me manage nething on top of it....going to the hospy almost everyday...taking sleeping pills (wud prefer calling them tht) ....which is the only way tht i can see to stop myself from scratching myself till i bleed :(
And now feeling left out in grp also....nothing in common to share abt....and then when i complain to him abt it....all i gettu listen to is "learn managing things on ur own now"...well yeah...thts wht exactly i wanted to listen to
Nothing seems to go right...nothing seems fine....wanna run away...but still cant...wanna go home...not possible...wanna take time off....wht to b feeling "Huhhhh....!!!!!! for once i have nothing to worry about"
Will tht day ever come ???